Hello all, welcome back to another blogpost and in this one we are gonna get deep and talk about mental health. I think this post is gonna be heavy so if you're not normally into this kinda stuff it's probably best to give this one a miss.
In the summer of 2018 I was diagnosed with clinical depression, I really wasn't surprised as ever since I was a child it was obvious something wasn't right. For instance, on a Sunday I would get so down and just lie in my bed and nearly cry all afternoon at the thought of having to get up and leave the house for school the next day, this was at age 8 so it was not healthy for a young child.
Things really spiralled out of control when me and my recent boyfriend split up, however that was probably the best thing to ever happen to me and here is why.
Before the split I always relied on other people for my own happiness, I believed that without them I couldn't be happy, whether it be a best friend, a boyfriend and so on. When I was with my ex I had recently lost my best friend so he was everything I had, therefore I put my everything into that relationship and this is okay to do, however I had told myself that this was my only source of happiness in my life, therefore when it was over I was broken.
For weeks I didn't go to sixth form, I wouldn't leave my bed, my mental health was at its lowest and I thought it was going to be this way forever, I cut myself off from almost everyone just to avoid the erruption of pain I believed my mental health would cause.
It is okay to wallow and be sad however I think it is also important to not take it to an extreme, I had been through break ups before, serious ones so I knew that this wasn't the cause, I knew the cause was in my own head. I decided to go to the doctors and get medication, I got put on 20mg of citrolopram which lifted me however this was not enough.
I remember the day it got better was the day I decided that I controlled my own happiness. That I had to find it within myself and that I could only ever rely on myself to bring happiness. I found myself to be more outgoing and bubbly, I met loads of new people yet never found myself relying upon them being there, I went out loads and kept telling myself that I am enough. I guess there is no true moral here, I just wanted to put it out there that you can control your own happiness as long as you find it within yourself first. Please never rely on anyone else to bring it to you, they are just emphasising the happiness you already hold, it is amazing what a difference having a new mindset can make. I am so grateful for all my new friends who support me when I am down, but I would definitely say I am a different person from who I was last summer.
Please email me if you have any questions at lucyxsifford@gmail.com
Thank you very much for reading and I'll be back to my usual style next week.
Wednesday, 20 February 2019
Thursday, 14 February 2019
my top 5 cheap as makeup products
hello, yes i am skint, but being skint doesn't mean you have to be ugly right? So to cover my naturally questionable face I like to use some very inexpensive makeup products that comforts and consoles that rather small uni budget. These products I think are really good but if they don't work for you then don't sue me, I have dry skin but it's quite clear so let that be your guide.
Ok numbero uno;
I'm gonna start with my fave which is gonna be anti-climatic at the end but I don't want this to be really long winded and boring so my fave and the ultimate bargain of uni is the revolution conceal and define foundation.
Revolution Conceal and Define Foundation- £9
I use the shade F10 because I fake tan and I think it's a lovely colour. Let's break it down y'all...
Coverage- 4/5
Blendability- 4/5
Finish- 5/5
Lasting Power- 4/5
This foundation is deffo on the more matte side so if you like a sheen to your skin this may not be the one for you, however, I have tried this with Primark's glowing setting spray and it makes it a lot more dewy so if you still want this coverage with a glowy look you can always try that.
2) Revolution Conceal and Define Concealer- £4
I use the shade C2 because I like to highlight under my eyes, the shade range does go beyond this however I don't want to interfere with copyright claims so here's a pic I found ya'll cos my budget doesn't allow me to buy all the shades for this blog post sorry.
Coverage- 4/5
Blendability- 5/5
Finish- 5/5
Lasting Power- 5/5
This is such a bargain and I've seen it compared to the tarte shape tape so there's that. I reccommend trying this even if you start with the small size, it doesn't crease and it has a lovely matte finish. LAVVV IT
3) Sleek blush
So I got this blush when Zoella raved about it and I still have it so there's your value for money. (If you aren't a flake 99 like me then basically i've had it 3 years probs) I have the shade coral and upon looking for a swatch i have discovered to my heart break that they have discontinued this one, however I believe the formula's to be the same so take your pick out of the 4 they have left (dabs in anger)
4) Revolution chocolate orange palette - £9
If you are an orange fiend like myself then this palette is an absolute steal. It blends really well and the pigment pay off is peng. Unfortunately I dropped mine, broke the lid and smashed some colours to smithereens so enjoy this stock image from superdrugs website because we love co-operations rather than home taken piccys x
5)NYX Vinyl eyeliner - £7
I love this liner because it doesn't smudge and it stays matte all night, plus it's name is shared upon the finest room in the atik night club (love u collywood) This eyeliner may not be the best for beginners due to the shape of it and I found it easiest to use a gel liner with a brush when I was starting out, however if you have a steady hand deffo give this beast a try.
Alas we are at the end of this post. I love cheap makeup and cheap thrills feel free to email me any requests or comment any questions u have. Overall the best makeup brand for cheap decent makeup is deffo revolution and most of my makeup is from there. I may do a full face of revolution in a future post so stay tuned for that. Laters
Ok numbero uno;
I'm gonna start with my fave which is gonna be anti-climatic at the end but I don't want this to be really long winded and boring so my fave and the ultimate bargain of uni is the revolution conceal and define foundation.
Revolution Conceal and Define Foundation- £9
I use the shade F10 because I fake tan and I think it's a lovely colour. Let's break it down y'all...
Coverage- 4/5
Blendability- 4/5
Finish- 5/5
Lasting Power- 4/5
This foundation is deffo on the more matte side so if you like a sheen to your skin this may not be the one for you, however, I have tried this with Primark's glowing setting spray and it makes it a lot more dewy so if you still want this coverage with a glowy look you can always try that.
2) Revolution Conceal and Define Concealer- £4
I use the shade C2 because I like to highlight under my eyes, the shade range does go beyond this however I don't want to interfere with copyright claims so here's a pic I found ya'll cos my budget doesn't allow me to buy all the shades for this blog post sorry.
Coverage- 4/5
Blendability- 5/5
Finish- 5/5
Lasting Power- 5/5
This is such a bargain and I've seen it compared to the tarte shape tape so there's that. I reccommend trying this even if you start with the small size, it doesn't crease and it has a lovely matte finish. LAVVV IT
3) Sleek blush
So I got this blush when Zoella raved about it and I still have it so there's your value for money. (If you aren't a flake 99 like me then basically i've had it 3 years probs) I have the shade coral and upon looking for a swatch i have discovered to my heart break that they have discontinued this one, however I believe the formula's to be the same so take your pick out of the 4 they have left (dabs in anger)
4) Revolution chocolate orange palette - £9
If you are an orange fiend like myself then this palette is an absolute steal. It blends really well and the pigment pay off is peng. Unfortunately I dropped mine, broke the lid and smashed some colours to smithereens so enjoy this stock image from superdrugs website because we love co-operations rather than home taken piccys x
5)NYX Vinyl eyeliner - £7
I love this liner because it doesn't smudge and it stays matte all night, plus it's name is shared upon the finest room in the atik night club (love u collywood) This eyeliner may not be the best for beginners due to the shape of it and I found it easiest to use a gel liner with a brush when I was starting out, however if you have a steady hand deffo give this beast a try.
Alas we are at the end of this post. I love cheap makeup and cheap thrills feel free to email me any requests or comment any questions u have. Overall the best makeup brand for cheap decent makeup is deffo revolution and most of my makeup is from there. I may do a full face of revolution in a future post so stay tuned for that. Laters
Tuesday, 5 February 2019
I r8 my experience of UEA (a humble review of the University Of East Anglia)
hello hello h e l l o,
Lucy here and I'm going to rate UEA based on my experience here in a really unbiased, constructive and honest way.
So, UEA, commonly referred to as the 'University Of Easy Access' due to the sheer amount of unconditionals they hand out for absolutely no reason, however, I am not complaining as I am one of these individuals who screamed at the opportunity of minimum effort maximum gain. Nevertheless, even with it's degrading nickname UEA will constantly remind you of its top 20 university status, something which the University Of Exeter students HATE.
The Accomodation: The crack den kitchen has its own desperate charm, I for one LOVE paston house, it is extremely sociable and everyone is lovely. Although you do feel like you are cooking in a primary school kitchen your roll of dinner lady is made worthwhile by the excellent company and people living around you. My cleaner, Gloria, is amazing and is constantly working above and beyond and even cleans our kitchen Wednesdays as an extra treat. The beds look like camp beds but oh boy are they actually comfortable, there is nowhere I'd rather be than that lovely little single bed after a damn good sesh. The bed itself can fit two people, me and my boyfriend sometimes share it and although it is reasonably tight (he is 6 foot) we manage just fine. The bathroom is lovely although my floor always ends up a lake?????????? However the shower has the perfect pressure and once you've found the right temperature with the handle you can just crank that bad boy up and be in pure bliss. On Wednesday's Gloria (or whoever your cleaner is) will attempt to clean your bathroom whilst your a hungover mess from the night before, this does mean your bathroom will hardly get cleaned as I promise you will be writing a 'dont clean bathroom sign' at 4am when you're steaming from the absolute sesh pot that is the LCR.
The Nights Out: You'll constantly hear how Norwich has the best night life. This is not exactly true however the nights out are pretty good. Lets start with UEA's finest. The LCR. The pinnacle of a cheap class night out, Tuesday's NOT Saturdays. Damn Good is the highlight of my week, cheesy music and an even cheesier theme that nobody will ever adhere to. You will stumble out of the LCR drunk and see the Oasis that is the chip van. DO NOT GIVE IN unless you want to take out a mortgage. These chips are amazing and you know, if you're on such a level that you're envisaging your friends as fries with curry sauce then stand in that queue for half an hour but I suggest buying a bag of £1.50 chips from tescos and sticking them in your weird combination oven. A list is a required taste, Drum and bass and loads of boys fighting over who has the most testosterone, a little bit more expensive (£6), I would much prefer to venture to a Thursday loft session where entry is £1 and the drinks are practically free. However, UEA's uni club is sick and I fully rate man.
Lectures: Probably my least important aspect of Uni, Some of my lecturers (James Andow, Fi Roxburgh) are basically Gods among us, they are insane at their job and I fully rate them. You Will encounter the Cathy's and the Mark's who take an extra month to give back your summative results and never give notes out in a lecture but oh boy do those A class lecturers make up for it. Overall you're bound to have some lecturers you don't vibe with, but most of them are pretty class and I can see why they have a gold teaching award. But still haven't got back one summative I handed in 3 months ago now lol Mark where is it at? xxxxxxx
Overall: Circuit Laundry and Combination ovens are what will shape your uni experience. Just like how a triangle wouldn't be a triangle without 3 sides, uni wouldn't be uni without circuit laundry or 4am pot pasta's. These experiences will shape you as a person and I couldn't reccomend UEA enough. This humble campus with down to earth kitchens feel like home now and my flatmates are my second family. So if you're considering accepting that unconditional then definately do it because when you're having a picnic by the lake on a hot summers day you will not regret it.
I love u UEA and I love u Paston House
Peace out x
Lucy here and I'm going to rate UEA based on my experience here in a really unbiased, constructive and honest way.
So, UEA, commonly referred to as the 'University Of Easy Access' due to the sheer amount of unconditionals they hand out for absolutely no reason, however, I am not complaining as I am one of these individuals who screamed at the opportunity of minimum effort maximum gain. Nevertheless, even with it's degrading nickname UEA will constantly remind you of its top 20 university status, something which the University Of Exeter students HATE.
The Accomodation: The crack den kitchen has its own desperate charm, I for one LOVE paston house, it is extremely sociable and everyone is lovely. Although you do feel like you are cooking in a primary school kitchen your roll of dinner lady is made worthwhile by the excellent company and people living around you. My cleaner, Gloria, is amazing and is constantly working above and beyond and even cleans our kitchen Wednesdays as an extra treat. The beds look like camp beds but oh boy are they actually comfortable, there is nowhere I'd rather be than that lovely little single bed after a damn good sesh. The bed itself can fit two people, me and my boyfriend sometimes share it and although it is reasonably tight (he is 6 foot) we manage just fine. The bathroom is lovely although my floor always ends up a lake?????????? However the shower has the perfect pressure and once you've found the right temperature with the handle you can just crank that bad boy up and be in pure bliss. On Wednesday's Gloria (or whoever your cleaner is) will attempt to clean your bathroom whilst your a hungover mess from the night before, this does mean your bathroom will hardly get cleaned as I promise you will be writing a 'dont clean bathroom sign' at 4am when you're steaming from the absolute sesh pot that is the LCR.
The Nights Out: You'll constantly hear how Norwich has the best night life. This is not exactly true however the nights out are pretty good. Lets start with UEA's finest. The LCR. The pinnacle of a cheap class night out, Tuesday's NOT Saturdays. Damn Good is the highlight of my week, cheesy music and an even cheesier theme that nobody will ever adhere to. You will stumble out of the LCR drunk and see the Oasis that is the chip van. DO NOT GIVE IN unless you want to take out a mortgage. These chips are amazing and you know, if you're on such a level that you're envisaging your friends as fries with curry sauce then stand in that queue for half an hour but I suggest buying a bag of £1.50 chips from tescos and sticking them in your weird combination oven. A list is a required taste, Drum and bass and loads of boys fighting over who has the most testosterone, a little bit more expensive (£6), I would much prefer to venture to a Thursday loft session where entry is £1 and the drinks are practically free. However, UEA's uni club is sick and I fully rate man.
Lectures: Probably my least important aspect of Uni, Some of my lecturers (James Andow, Fi Roxburgh) are basically Gods among us, they are insane at their job and I fully rate them. You Will encounter the Cathy's and the Mark's who take an extra month to give back your summative results and never give notes out in a lecture but oh boy do those A class lecturers make up for it. Overall you're bound to have some lecturers you don't vibe with, but most of them are pretty class and I can see why they have a gold teaching award. But still haven't got back one summative I handed in 3 months ago now lol Mark where is it at? xxxxxxx
Overall: Circuit Laundry and Combination ovens are what will shape your uni experience. Just like how a triangle wouldn't be a triangle without 3 sides, uni wouldn't be uni without circuit laundry or 4am pot pasta's. These experiences will shape you as a person and I couldn't reccomend UEA enough. This humble campus with down to earth kitchens feel like home now and my flatmates are my second family. So if you're considering accepting that unconditional then definately do it because when you're having a picnic by the lake on a hot summers day you will not regret it.
I love u UEA and I love u Paston House
Peace out x
An update.
Yo, its ME, you have probably forgotten who I am as it's been so long however A LEVELS ARE DONE. I can now focus my attention on my degree and this blog. So, I realised people are still reading my blogposts daily even with my inactivity so I owe it to you guys to give you some good posts. Now, I do not know what can be defined as good so if you want to tell me what products to review or what kind of posts you would like please comment below.
Have a peachy day!
Lucy Siffz
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